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I lost my grand-nephew, Ashton, two weeks ago. He was 14 months old. Obviously, it wasn't his time. We still aren't exactly sure how he died.

I have not been taking it very well at all.

As a result of this I've been extremely depressed and thoughts of suicide/other forms of harming myself have been plaguing my mind, although I know it won't help anything. I won't do anything like that, though. I know it's stupid. I promise I won't do anything drastic.
I'd like to ask that you guys excuse any idiotic behavior from me for the next few weeks, maybe next couple months. I'm really sorry and I wish that I could control things better. I do not want to be depressed or upset in the least bit. I hate it.

In short, excuse my stupid bullshit, and make mean jokes towards the 12 year olds, not me.

(Small tangent):
If anything else, I do still have my friends. Brandon, Nick, Jake, Zac, furfags on Twitter, people I know in Gainesville, anyone else I may have forgotten. The few friends I do have are certainly the best friends I've ever had and could ever ask for.

And above that, I do have a certain Folf residing in Butler, PA, who I simply must thank for being so patient with me (putting up with my bullshit.) Without him and his support... well, I don't really want to think about where I'd be. I love you Gregory, you mean everything to me.

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Baranar 2011-01-28 06:00:51

You're not alone. I'm depressed too, though not as much as you are. Try not to think about self-harm or suicide, it'll only make you want to do either more.

Also owls in my ass.

SashaSkull 2011-01-28 06:00:51

Man, you all of all people shouldn't be depressed. :< You don't deserve it.

Feathery~

sourcola 2011-01-28 07:05:28

I hope you feel better soon. I can't exactly tell how it feels to be in your position but please do NOT think of doing those horrible things.

SashaSkull 2011-01-28 07:05:28

Thank you. I do try not to but it just comes up randomly sometimes, I'm not sure how to explain it.

HeavyMetalGuy 2011-01-28 16:15:18

I know how you feel. Losing a relative is hard, especially a parent, in my case. Keep a strong resolve, and everything will be ok. You can't let lose of life keep you down.

-That leopard, Zac-

SashaSkull 2011-01-28 16:15:18

Thank you.

BrokenPaw 2011-01-28 16:30:50

Again, I'm sorry for your loss honey, and you know I'll always be there for you. You'll have my support whenever you need it. I love you honey, you mean everything to me too :3c

P.S: I LOVE YOU MORE ;w;

SashaSkull 2011-01-28 16:30:50

Unless of course, you're too tired.
-sigh- >w<
You do not, I absolutely love you more and that's that.

HiroskeTheGod 2011-01-29 01:11:16

What the hell, Sasha? List Nick, Jake, Brandon, and Zac? I feel disliked. I thought I could trust you! ;w; Now.. To the main point. Being a young male that did have multiple years of severe depression and going through those times again. I can say you just have to look forward to the little things. Just try smiling a smile once a day. Even if it's a fake smile. Sooner or later that smile should be real.

If you ever need to talk I'm here ye' budday of gayneesssss.

SashaSkull 2011-01-29 01:11:16

I meant you too :3c
Thanks.

HiroskeTheGod 2011-01-29 01:12:17

BTW. Greg and you make an amazing couple. So you should love eachother. :D

SteelChair 2011-01-29 14:15:25

I am a little lost... To many people I have to know now.. Anyway, I am sorry for your loss. It must be terrible, but of course harming yourself is never the answer. I really hope you feel better and don't go with that suicide option.

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